When Real Life sets in...

I'll be honest...I am depressed this week. Normally, Brian and I would be spending Thanksgiving with my family this year... But unfortunately that doesn't get to happen due to Brian having to work today and Friday. He gets Thanksgiving day off, but we cannot really travel because of it. So I am depressed because all of my family will be together and I don't get to be there. In the great scheme of things, it is minor but I love my family and I love when we can all be together which is not very often. Since Brian just started his job in August, he doesn't have any days off yet so we are learning how real life works. We don't really get holidays off. We have to work until 5 and sometimes later. We have to pay bills, and we have to be responsible. It isn't like we weren't responsible before, but we have more freedom to go and do things whenever we wanted in a sense.

It is hard being a full-time mother, wife and student. It is hard trying to get healthy and stay healthy on top of that. I seem to keep adding more things to my plate and honestly I don't know how I am surviving. There are so many days that I feel like a chicken with its head cut off. I constantly ask myself why I started doing things or why I am allowing things to happen that would not have occurred a year ago...I guess I am overwhelmed with life that I am learning that little things here and there are alright. I cannot control everything. I am learning to live with things. I am learning to turn to the Lord in constant prayer so that He can carry me through my trials in life.

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